Breakdown!

Emosi TTH....that's what am feeling now.

Sorry luv for loosing it yesterday....for breaking down like a lil gurl....am just scared, nervous, panic & stress out...dun wanna be too optimistic but I guess I am. This waiting game is driving me crazy....been staying calm for the past 1 week....silly pain & incident makes me breakdown. Coz i desperately wish & pray to see positive result on my test by end of the week even though I dun really show it to you or people around me. But yeah, I just dun wanna get too excited but only Allah knows best how am feeling.

Thank you for being there for me. Thank you for letting me cry. Thank you for being the one :p

May Allah blessed our journey.

LIVE . LOVE . LAUGH

LIVE every moment
LOVE beyond words
LAUGH everyday

keep yourself positive everyday, every single moment...
I'll remember that!
I must remember that!
Will keep reminding myself!

"sigh"

BS
why cant you arrange a  meeting with proper info and details...
when are you going to learn to do everything yourself?
is it because you're the big sistah? 


CF
why are you being such a control freak?
why cant you say something nice?
when someone is just trying to help out.
why do we need a project manager if he/she have no say?
why cant you come down to the boardroom immediately when you're call for a meeting?
why do i have to get those unpleasant stare from the big boss because of you?


SIGH


i love my job
i love my job
i love my job


BUT


sometimes i hate my boss, the family & my colleague!!!!!


SO


am gonna keep reminding myself to think positive, be positive


AND 


to love people around me....well not all...off course


AND 


just ignore all those bullshits

A gift to myself!

Thanks to the Christmas sale I've bought myself a simple yet nice mossy ring! 

And not to forget thanks to my lovely friend "G" who had make sure the sales assistant searched for the right size for me no matter what....I almost cancelled my purchased when the lady said there's no more size for the design that I've chosen :( 

I really dunno what to tell Mr Hubby...but am happy since I never bought a gift to myself except...shoes, clothes, handbags, watches, perfumes...to name a few :p

Hey! I never bought any jewelery (gold, platinum etc...) for myself ...except simple & cheap stuffs...because am so not into gold and bling bling....but being a woman and having these few lovely women in my life make me appreciate it and off course want to have at least one!

I remember those days when I warned my fiance now hubby not to buy me a ring with stone or I might loose any or one of the stone...LOL! So he got me a simple wedding band which I can wear anywhere I go especially when engaged in outdoor activities.....

Now I wanna go home and enjoy the long weekend ahead in the rainforest! Oh well, off course am not gonna wear my new ring....no way jose!

Anyway happy holiday & have a merry christmas if you came across this post!

am bad!

r u that mad at me?

am i that bad in your eyes? 

maybe i am.

yes am bad.

i have my reason.

i know am not being fair.

maybe coz i keep letting u make all the decisions.

again and again and again!

my bad!

am bad! am bad! am bad!

LOL!!!!!!

Move with the cheese!

Recently I've been feeling so demotived & negativity at work...

I didnt bring personal problem at work...never!!! Well..very..very..very seldom....maybe 1 out of 10!!!

It's the work environment, company's situation, trouble, reasons & these few annoying people around me that creates this!!!

The dissatisfaction, frustration and on and on...bundles up and it's making me....urgghhh..I dunno how to express it!!!

Yes, I need to Move with the Cheese!!!

No, I can't expect for others to Move My Cheese and keep asking Who Moved My Cheese anymore!!!

I  definitely need to move it myself!!!

"You don't mess with the Elle"

I've been feeling dizzy for the past few weeks....on & off...its so uncomfortable!

In my case a sudden change in body position, most often when shifting from lying down to standing will make me dizzy...I have to lie down for 15-20mins before I rush to the bathroom in the morning...

Have I been using my brain too much?? LOL

Guess it's my low blood & sometimes it comes with terrible migraine!

Did you know a low blood person is "short tempered"...hihihi...

so the summary of this post is....

"You don't mess with the Elle"